Solomon // one month.

I thought it would be fun to write a little letter each month to Solomon since I love writing them so much. It will be a great way to keep track of all the things that fill the days of his first year and I know I will want to remember them. I also think it will be so neat when he is old enough to read and understand all of these details. I want him to know how loved he is and know all the details of his life!
Also, the monthly stats are at the bottom of the post!

Dear Solomon, 

You are here! I haven't written you a little letter since you have joined us and I thought your monthly update was a perfect time for one. 

You have so, so many people who love you. It is amazing how you have touched so many people's lives and bring joy to so many. We are so happy to call you ours. 

You are such a chill and happy baby! We are SUPER thankful for that!!! From the moment you took your first breath, I couldn't believe how happy you were. You seldom cry, only when you are hungry or need a diaper change.... And you sometimes scream during those changes. You have gotten better and more used to them now, but there's no way of knowing if you will hate a diaper change until it is happening. You even sleep through some night changes after you eat; those make me really happy!!!

There was one diaper change that was very interesting.... You decided to have a projectile poop all over me, the window, the living room curtains; it even ran down the wall onto the carpet. Your  dad and I were both shocked! He said you were giving him some great material for his speech at your wedding, ha! 

For some reason you seem to hate going to sleep and you fight it so hard! I'm hoping you will grow out of this and love sleep as much as your parents do. Cause we do love it, and we miss it a lot! Trust me.... But even those nights when I am so tired and I can hardly stand the burning sensation around my eyes, you give me a grin and I forgive you instantly. Once you finally fall asleep, you really enjoy it and even sleep for 3-4 hours at night now. But seriously, sleep is a great thing, I promise! Don't fight it, son!!

It is amazing how your fingernails grow into little sharp knives that love to claw my chest to pieces. I slightly fear for my life when you get overly excited while you eat. Speaking of eating.... You love it! It's hard to keep you awake most of the time but you honestly love nothing more than skin to skin and lots of milk! I think you'd be most happy in just a diaper all day. I'm sure you will love spring and summer for this reason. I can picture you now, running around the backyard & chasing chickens, in nothing but a diaper one day. 

The worst part about this first month would definitely be our surprise hospital visit. I have never been so scared and worried in my life. You were so tiny and helpless and I felt like a failure for not being able to protect you. I know deep down that it was necessary and I'm not in control at all, but I wanted to be your safe place and save you from all the pain during those sad moments. You proved to be a fighter and handled the entire stay with so much bravery, even as a two week old baby. I am so proud of you! 

I know deep down that I am not in control, and no matter what I did or could do wouldn't matter, because God is in control. He is your protector and your true safe place. He is the only one who can fix you. I am so thankful that He gave you to me but I know that you are really His. I pray that everything I do points you to that. That is my prayer, that you turn to Him wholeheartedly one day. 

All these memories are so special to me, and I hope you love to read about your beginning one day. I can't imagine how amazing you will become, sweet boy! You already fill my heart with so much joy and excitement!! 

Love, Momma 

stats // checked last week and he was 10 lbs and also 22 inches long

eating // all the time, loves eating every 2-3 hours but spread things out to 3-4 hours at night when not going through a growth spurt
sleeping // different every day and night but he always fights it.

wearing // size 1 diapers and 3 month clothing

favorite things // looking around and being walked around, staring at daddy and giving momma smiles, grunting and trying to talk non-stop