You know that Vick's commercial about the mom that was sick and needed a sick day. Her little girl was all dressed up with her stuffed animal and looked so confused? Well, last week I had one of those days. I didn't have the flu or felt terribly sick but I didn't feel 100%. I didn't even feel 80%. I was tired. My head was hurting. I didn't sleep well the night before and a little monster in my belly woke me up at 7AM kicking away.
It made me think about those days in the future when I can't just roll over and snooze or call in sick to work. I have to be on it. All the time. No sick days. So, I took a sick day. That's what PTO is for anyways, right? It was so nice to sleep in till 10:45 and eat snacks on the couch while watching Gilmore Girls. Even do a little cleaning and organizing throughout the day with a late afternoon nap. It was needed.
Total honesty, one of the things that scares me about being a mother is not having off days. I need those days as a human being sometimes. Days to just close the blinds, sleep in a little, and rest. But on the other hand, I can't wait to have a little person who needs me and wants me all the time. That will be amazing.
Sitting here typing these words I feel his little kicks and I take that as a confirmation that he already needs me. I am his complete source of comfort and I know that won't fade for a long time. Or at least I hope it doesn't. Even if that means no sick days. He is worth it. 100% worth it!