You know that Vick's commercial about the mom that was sick and needed a sick day. Her little girl was all dressed up with her stuffed animal and looked so confused? Well, last week I had one of those days. I didn't have the flu or felt terribly sick but I didn't feel 100%. I didn't even feel 80%. I was tired. My head was hurting. I didn't sleep well the night before and a little monster in my belly woke me up at 7AM kicking away.
It made me think about those days in the future when I can't just roll over and snooze or call in sick to work. I have to be on it. All the time. No sick days. So, I took a sick day. That's what PTO is for anyways, right? It was so nice to sleep in till 10:45 and eat snacks on the couch while watching Gilmore Girls. Even do a little cleaning and organizing throughout the day with a late afternoon nap. It was needed.
Total honesty, one of the things that scares me about being a mother is not having off days. I need those days as a human being sometimes. Days to just close the blinds, sleep in a little, and rest. But on the other hand, I can't wait to have a little person who needs me and wants me all the time. That will be amazing.
Sitting here typing these words I feel his little kicks and I take that as a confirmation that he already needs me. I am his complete source of comfort and I know that won't fade for a long time. Or at least I hope it doesn't. Even if that means no sick days. He is worth it. 100% worth it!
2 comments:
I was afraid of the "no down time" thing, too. It's in our nature to want for ourselves, right? But it's kind of crazy how it ALSO comes naturally to love giving to our children. That's God in us. And when it gets tough, you have your hubby. Mine is a lifesaver. Although Lucy spends most of her time with me, I can hand her off to Pierce whenever I need to and take a break. I don't know how single mamas do it. Pierce is truly a gift and I know your hubby will be, as well!
I think your mother instinct will kick in even when you're sick. And family members/friends will surely be a blessing!
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