I am really enjoying the bible study that I mentioned a few days ago so much! #areadyheart is exactly what I needed to get out of my funk. Yes… I said it, a funk. I’m not going to lie to you; I have found myself in a “mehh, I don’t feel like reading my bible today” kind of mood recently. Of course this doesn’t make me feel good. It makes me feel terrible. I’ve prayed about it and tried to find a drive to open that big book by my bed everyday but it always ends up feeling pointless. So I decided to wait. Wait till I feel that need again. Wait for something to come along and wake me up, forcing me to read those very important words. Then I found this study and it struck a chord with me.

On Monday I enjoyed reading Ephesians 5:15-32….

Submissive. That word that makes so many women (and men) uncomfortable. I’ve honestly never had a problem when thinking about becoming a submissive wife. The Lord asks this of us and we are supposed to become a submissive wife to grow closer to our husband and love him, mirroring what Christ does with the church. While reading these verses I started to feel pride within myself and then I realized how hypocritical I was acting.

Submissive can also mean obey. Just as we are called to obey God and what have I been doing for the past several weeks?

Have I been obeying His call to live within His word? Nope.

Have I listened to my head instead of my heart when I climbed in bed at night and turned away from the bible on my night stand? Yup.

I was not obeying at all. I simply decided to wait. Becoming lazy without any drive and then choose to pick up where I left off when I felt ready.

Once I realized the way I treated my quiet time with the Lord and my relationship with Him I was ashamed. I couldn’t help but wonder about my future as a submissive wife. I know there will be times when I won't agree with Peter or I won't understand his reasoning for a decision but instead of becoming lazy in our relationship I will need to stay active. I will have to stay engaged through anything because that is what I’ve been called to do as his wife. I want our marriage to represent the relationship that Christ has with the church and through submission, trust & love I know we will find that. That is my prayer this week, that every single day I spend in this study God will peel back a layer of myself and show me where I can improve as a woman and as a future wife. To do what he has called me to do.

Preparation.

I know that I have shared some love for Instagram and the blogging world a few times now but my heart hit a new limit last night. My sweet friend from IG, Cassie (obviously she is awesome) Marshall, decided to start her own blog. You should check it out! I was so humbled by her kind words and amazed by the way she expressed her heart. We have always liked each others photos and commented back and forth a few times but I didn’t truly know her. Now that has changed.

I think that is one of the most beautiful parts of blogging, expressing your heart for all to see. I have learned so much about myself since I have started and I absolutely love looking back on all the memories I have kept over the years. Another beautiful part of the blog world is the network. Having the chance to “meet” other people that have the same passion. Women that are seeking God’s will and want to glorify him with every word they type. Thanks to Cassie and her new blog I have found another wonderful blog that I couldn’t stop reading last night.

Nicole from Bloom is so inspiring. I feel like I am right behind this woman… she just got married in March and all her posts come from a heart of transition from fiancé to wife and I can’t imagine reading anything more perfect for me right now. I know I still have some time but reading what she has written makes me more hopeful. More excited and more ready to become a wife and a true HELPER to my husband. While reading her blog last night I came across a bible study called A Ready Heart that she put together for the week before she said i do and I couldn’t wait to wake up this morning and start it myself.

I can’t wait to learn more about what the bible says a wife should be. Discovering what God intended a husband and wife to look like and praying for my future marriage to mirror that. I wanted to share this study today because I know there are a lot of engaged and newly married women that might read this. Any woman can do this study…. Single, engaged, married… whatever you are you are still His and we can learn what He intended for us to become.

As I’m going along with this study I will share my thoughts on Instagram and here as well, if you want to join along you can use #areadyheart to tag your pictures also. Nicole created this to prepare herself as a bride and I’m so thankful she did. Preparation is such a big part of my life right now with the wedding plans, finding a house, starting a life with Peter and the key to all this preparing is my heart.

Right now my heart is so full. I feel like I say that so often and I don’t want it to become repetitive and come across weakly but I really can’t explain it in any other way. I feel as if my chest could burst with thankfulness and happiness because of so many things. Because of grace and His love every single day. Because of these ladies that I have never met but have completely touched my life. Because of my future responsibility as a wife. Because I have this chance to share something truly amazing. My heart is full.